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No doubt, many consider the desire to be HIV+ a very dark, taboo fetish. Intentionally inviting a potentially fatal disease into your body has serious ramifications. Still, as others have suggested, it is more manageable now than ever before. It is expensive....and there is a stigma as well. But, i am not sure any of that keeps the dark desires at bay. Getting it over with, belonging to a "group", being open for a fear-less sex life are some of the reasons guys have talked about being their root reasons for chasing. I chased, was fairly quickly converted. I continue to enjoy lots of poz on poz sex. I did lots of research and felt I understood how life would change as a POZ guy. So far, I have not had any real surprises....other than how enjoyable the poz on poz sex has been.

like any fine art, being a very good bottom takes some practice. there is a mental part....relaxing, focus, control over your ass muscles..... there is a physical part, learning to release and open up, communicating what you like, having some ability to squeeze down on that cock that is ramming you. using a series of dildos or butt plugs can help. even after decades of anal sex, i still have a couple plugs i use if it has been a while (try to avoid that situation by fucking regularly). early on, lots of lube seemed to help...but i have learned to back off of the lube. i think the use of poppers helps as well....taking a hit right before that cock pierces your hole seems to help.....turns on the sexual drive and lessens some of the momentary pain.

being somewhat of a slut, i have enjoyed lots of tops. I have to say that it have not felt the actually cum shot. I certainly know they are cumming.....and know when they are about to get to the final phase of their orgasm. But, I simply do not feel their load exploding into me....or splattering the walls of my shit chute. No doubt, I can feel it dribbling after the fact......but I just do not feel the actual load going in.

This is a valid discussion that we all need to understand. No doubt, the safe sex guys and the chasers/gift givers will never agree on the subject. Still it is important for each of us to understand the transmission and development of the disease and all that is related to it. It is a significant change to your body.....simply getting infected without understanding seem like a poor choice....since the cost and risks would not be understood. It is really similar to the old "if you can't do the time, don't do the crime" concept.....getting posed can be quite easy....living with HIV+ maybe less so. And yes, I chased, was converted and have been poz for 6 months.......while i would NOT change my choices, I do recognize what a serious issue this can be.

I am fortunate...I live close enough to one to visit quite often....and it is always great fun....good pool, nude guys....and fun. It is Timberfell Lodge in Greeneville, TN. The other I go to from time to time is RIver's Edge in Dewy Rose, GA. The paths at night are a guaranteed fuck. Warm air, nude guys....hard dicks....if you go....and do not get fucked as much as you want (or to top as much as you want) it is your own fault....

I too was a paperboy and had my first sex (of any type) with a customer (never really knew age...he was likely in mid thirties). It started off with him making some printed porn (pre interned, dvd, vcr days). He had both straight and gay porn....and noticed when I took some, it was the gay books. That lead to him coming to the door nude when I collected....to touching....to giving blow jobs...to me getting fucked (about 4 months to get from seeing him nude the first time to letting him top me. It was a grand experience......I knew that I liked it a lot. And pretty soon, I was also having sex with a couple guys my own age. In some whys, i feel fortunate that I had a good teacher that early....I never really questioned if I was gay or not.....just new that I liked having sex with other guys....and if that meant I was gay...then I simply was gay.

i know that want all too well.....hope you find what you are looking for and join the club.

these stories are great....and i know more of you have a wonderful story about the time the bug bit you. Please share.

got fucked by an interesting couple yesterday. Jammed in a butt plug as they left......and kept it in all night. Nothing leaked out this morning....so must have soaked it all in........

some years ago i made my first visit to a gay nudist campground. after dark, things got quite hot.....I remember getting to 20......in my ass, did not count the blow jobs. there were more....but no doubt, I was fucked into a stupor and was not paying close attention......anyhow, that might not have been the most...but it was one of the hottest two day periods of my fuck life.......

there is a condom full of donor's cum.....in my freezer.......for what it is worth...that one came from a REAL cute twink who is chasing. once he converts, he is gonna ram the devil dick home with his newly pozzed cock. Might be the first time someone got both a neg load and a poz load from the same top at the same time.......

The guy who pozzed me was stealthing me. By the time he told me, we had already fucked a lot over a few days. I knew as soon as he told me, that it was likely a done deal. Around 40 days later, I woke up on Sunday not feeling great...and once I got focused, realized that what I had was probably the fuck flu (night sweats, lymph nodes swollen and hard, start of a cough). Went to the clinic the next day and simply confirmed what I already was certain of.....my ass was POZ.

yeah...but for anyone who has thoughts/desires in that area, there are guys here who have good info and advice.....certainly not a mainstream choice....but we are not suicidal losers either.......

confirmed barebacker, owner of www.barebackpledge.com website......HIV+, eunuch here...welcome to the site.....enjoy. love to hear your story progresses. a lot of my story is posted here......or on my other site www.ieunuch.com. have fun.......

i am a bottom....due to the anatomy that remains after my castration...and by my desires. However, i think can add a bit. I had a lot of poz guys during my chase....and continue to enjoy poz on poz sex now that I have converted. Most of the guys who topped me while I was chasing were pretty clear of their reasons for being gifters. Most simply understood the bond...and if you will...brotherhood among poz guys. They saw it as their role (maybe duty?) to help others who shared the desire and would share their situation after conversion. Some, no doubt, simply wanted the "high" from spreading their toxic jizz. Those guys were mostly just a "hit an run" and simply wanted to notch another neg conversation.....good sex..but not much of a connection. The guy who pozzed me was stealthing...(even though I was chasing...he still lied). He eventually came to tell me...but I was already converting by that time. His desire was to share his seed...I was his "first" willing partner...and he had not figured out how to really be up front about it. We eventually developed a real connection and still get together from time to time. Now that I am poz, I understand the idea of passing along the bug. Since i cannot top, I have few choices. I have, however, induced lactation and am allowing a neg, twink to suckle my infected breast milk....very odd...and very strange...but it is a really nice connection with the guy....he has really thought out what he wants......most likely will not work...but it is very sensual trying.....

my first cock up the ass experience was well before i got my driver's license. Guy was a customer on my paper route......we had played a bit orally.....but he wanted to fuck me....and I let him....and have craved cock every since. very, very good experience i have had a few not so good experiences. on sadistic top removed my cock ring by (^*&^*&(&....and started what is now a split cock head....like the feel now....but was really pissed then. was getting hammered while bent over a guys pool table....when his wife and teen age daughter walked in on us...that got a little intense.... but, in a life time of anal sex.....i have learned that any cock is a good cock....

Gotta be some more POZ guys out there who want to tell their story. There are countless stories of how each of us got to the "test" that proved we had converted. Sharing that story is a great way for us to recognize, despite the attempts at shaming, we have plenty of allies. Plus, a lot of the stories are just damned hot!

There is very little sex in the actual rituals of SATANISM with the group I participate with. However, once the ritual is complete.....there is gonna always be some serious fucking going on. No doubt, there seems to be a real connection between getting pozzed and being in communion with the dark (^*&^*&(&s.

a hit of poppers and none of them hurt.......and as you learn to get in sync with the top.......pain does not have to be an issue....

The decision to chase, the actual chase, the poz sex before and after conversion have combined to have made a very amazing experience for me. No doubt, I am not the only queer who has found out that poz on poz sex is amazing. What are your thoughts?

that is the way it should be....no condoms ever. once you take that first poz cock, you have the power to keep on going. keep it up and enjoy the raw rides of your future. and if you happen to convert, let us know.

woke up this morning (around 3) with a butt plug holding in the two poz loads I had taken. the top was the man who pozzed me and still cums around to fuck. sometime after the second load, he rammed the mid sized plug in place and left. it was so hot to pull out that plug and feel those stale, poz loads begin dripping from my slightly gaping hole. i was meant to take cum in any hole....and now love taking the toxic stuff even more.

Not a lot of new posts. I know you guys share my interest in bareback fucking men. I know I love taking bareback cock. I loved getting pozzed and still love taking all the poz cock I can get. Lets hear about your interests and conquests. If you chased the bug and caught, be proud and tells how you did it. If you are just starting riding raw cocks...tells what it is like to be a new guy experiencing the magic of skin on skin sex.

nice ass...hope it got filled with that good old toxic jizz.

March 30th was the 4 months anniversary of my POZ test result. I would have hardly noticed but I got a text from a very familiar number saying: You wanna recreate your pozzing? Only one person that could be from of course, the guy who changed my status. It was kind of cool that he remembered...but he is a good guy. The night I got the results, he came over to check in on my (the results were highly expected) mood---and we ended up fucking for hours----my first confirmed poz on poz fuck. I sent him a one word reply---NOW. In about 50 minutes he walks in (he knew i would have the door unlocked). Needless to say I was ready......cleaned up/out, lubed up, smoked up and horned up. But....and it was a bit of buzz killer....he had someone with him. It turns out, it is a kid (to me 26 is still a kid) he was trying to breed. I gave the kid verbal description of what it was liked to get fucked and pozzed by the man that he (the kid) wanted to get nailed by. Then my gifted and I proceeded to demonstrate just how it happened.....and once again i felt that great cock in my ass...and all to soon felt one more of his potent shots of jizz erupt from his meat. Now for the cool part. Just as he finished ramming me, he pushed the kid to lay down just as I was. I figured I was gonna watch him breed the kid for the first time...like the kid watch us. But, instead, he told me to offer my tits to the kid. If you have not read.....I am a eunuch....and as a result of my castration have developed nice tits. And, in my continued lust for kink. I have been working for months to induce lactation....yeah make milk. I started that before getting pozzed. Since my cock is shrunk and limp, I will never pass on the virus by topping.....just cannot happen. But, if i could induce lactation, milk could be the transmitter.....and getting my tits sucked a lot by somebody wanting at toxic milk shake would be hot. I have gotten up to about a quarter cup a day....probably a bit less most days. I pump every day and it seems as if that is increasing. Anyhow, he fucked the twink, while the twink sucked my tits and drank my milk. I wish we had filmed it....not often a guy gets...for his first poz load(s) the same strain of POZ DNA shot up his as and sucked into his guy at the same time. i know that makes my own poz adventures even hotter....and I am sure the kid will have vivid memories of his first adventures.... Kid called a bit ago. He has taken three more loads by our now-shared top.....and he had a big thirst for some poz eunuch shakes. Guess, I won't have to pump tonight....I will have an all natural method of relieving the pressure in my boobs. anyhow, had a great fuck......had a great boob suck and watched a hot fuck.....gave something toxic to a willing chaser. he seems like a great guy. not very one gets chasing....even many chasers....but this kid is well informed, he is enjoying the sex so far....but understands that his lifetime of being HIV+ is of more importance than the sex. He knows what to expect and he has a plan. Nice to know it was not just a random idea and a quick fetish high.