My first reaction was, how do I kill myself so I do not do this to someone else, my life is worthless, I NEED TO DIE!!!.  I was pozed by my BF of at that time 3 yrs, this was a total accident not in any way intentional.  He had ben poz for over 2 yrs prior to that.  I love him as much today as any other time, we are now in our 6th year together, will be together for ever as far as I'm concerned.  Interesting thing, I had to start meds almost immediately, he only started meds a couple months ago.  I would give anything to be rid of this monster.  Some may say that I brought this on myself, but when you love someone, you do what your heart tells you, we were being safe, but the rubber broke..  not to be a sob story, just my story. 
J.