Why I chase Poz guys

[jizzjunky]

I see a lot of talk about bug chasers and guys who are into poz men. Is a complicated subject. Some of the stuff I read is so ignorant and some just plain dumb. But its not a stupid subject nor or the chasers all fools. A few are and I feel sorry for them. They don't know what they are doing. As for myself I'd like to offer up my situation to enlighten people.

First of all I love, adore, am fascinated by and forever crave the male body, cock, ass and cum. I have a body built for sex. I can go all night long, cum over and over again with the right lover/lovers. I am not bragging its just the way it is. Sometimes its great, sometimes a curse.

Growing up in this fucked up society where homo's are all going to hell and sex is taboo can really mess up a teenager. God I was so fucking horny and had no outlet at all. I still have the photo album I filled with cutouts from excercise mags and catalogs. This was before internet and I had no idea how to get porn. My greatest desire was to suck dick. It nearly drove me crazy.

I went years with no physical contact. No chance at sex, no boyfriends. It was scary and frustrating. I finally broke out. Got thrown into the gay world an innnocent among devils. Gay society is fucked up in its own way. I got chewed up ended up broken but still horny so I said fuck it and I did. Man did I fuck.

At one point I figured I must be poz. I felt guilty having sex with neg guys so poz men attracted me more. Its as simple as that. After a while poz guys seemed sexier to me. Its a mind game. It felt so free and uncomplicated. Your poz, I'm poz skip the condoms and lets trade loads.

I really dislike condoms. They taste terrible and are uncomfortable to feel in my ass. I can tell when a guy wears one. I can't get as excited. Plus there is something exciting, as stupid as it sounds, about sharing your poz loads. Its like saying we are in this together, I know, I understand.

I never tried to become poz. Thats another issue but still understandable. Get it over with sort of mentality. But once you are poz your whole mindset changes.

Of course any doctor will tell you thats bogus if you want to mangage your HIV. You can get many different strains of the disease, some that can be managed with drugs others can't and you'll be dead in a year.

I'd really like to hear some feedback and comments on either this topic or my particular situation. I'd like to offer free blowjobs to anyone that comments but can't afford the plane tickets and I sure as hell am not taking the bus! Ha ha. Guess I will have to find surrogates.

[hungrysubbuk]

I see a lot of talk about bug chasers and guys who are into poz men. Is a complicated subject. Some of the stuff I read is so ignorant and some just plain dumb. But its not a stupid subject nor or the chasers all fools. A few are and I feel sorry for them. They don't know what they are doing. As for myself I'd like to offer up my situation to enlighten people.

First of all I love, adore, am fascinated by and forever crave the male body, cock, ass and cum. I have a body built for sex. I can go all night long, cum over and over again with the right lover/lovers. I am not bragging its just the way it is. Sometimes its great, sometimes a curse.

Growing up in this fucked up society where homo's are all going to hell and sex is taboo can really mess up a teenager. God I was so fucking horny and had no outlet at all. I still have the photo album I filled with cutouts from excercise mags and catalogs. This was before internet and I had no idea how to get porn. My greatest desire was to suck dick. It nearly drove me crazy.

I went years with no physical contact. No chance at sex, no boyfriends. It was scary and frustrating. I finally broke out. Got thrown into the gay world an innnocent among devils. Gay society is fucked up in its own way. I got chewed up ended up broken but still horny so I said fuck it and I did. Man did I fuck.

At one point I figured I must be poz. I felt guilty having sex with neg guys so poz men attracted me more. Its as simple as that. After a while poz guys seemed sexier to me. Its a mind game. It felt so free and uncomplicated. Your poz, I'm poz skip the condoms and lets trade loads.

I really dislike condoms. They taste terrible and are uncomfortable to feel in my ass. I can tell when a guy wears one. I can't get as excited. Plus there is something exciting, as stupid as it sounds, about sharing your poz loads. Its like saying we are in this together, I know, I understand.

I never tried to become poz. Thats another issue but still understandable. Get it over with sort of mentality. But once you are poz your whole mindset changes.

Of course any doctor will tell you thats bogus if you want to mangage your HIV. You can get many different strains of the disease, some that can be managed with drugs others can't and you'll be dead in a year.

I'd really like to hear some feedback and comments on either this topic or my particular situation. I'd like to offer free blowjobs to anyone that comments but can't afford the plane tickets and I sure as hell am not taking the bus! Ha ha. Guess I will have to find surrogates.

Its interesting what you have posted here.

I have not been fucked for over 10 years. I've become allergic to latex during that time, and, though there are non latex condoms available, I have thought that it might be easier to take it raw instead.

I have an inner slut that is longing to get out. My ass is tighter and more fuckable than it has ever been.

I have no desire at all to live into significantly older age. I'm 60 next June, and another 10/15 years after that will be fine by me.

The thing that makes me pause is that it is difficult to predict how becoming HIV will affect you. dementia is an option(it could be anyway, but HIV might speed this up). Also, it is not clear what impact HIV could have on other inherited conditions a person might have that had not started to be active at the time of becoming HIV poz.

I guess that one day I will take the plunge anyway, in a sauna, in a dark room, heading to a sling in a lighted area once mu ass is thoroughly creamed up, and it is clear what I am there for.

You seem to be making the best of what has happened to you - pity there is no profile or pics to give a clearer idea of you.

[jizzjunky]

Its interesting what you have posted here.

I have not been fucked for over 10 years. I've become allergic to latex during that time, and, though there are non latex condoms available, I have thought that it might be easier to take it raw instead.

I have an inner slut that is longing to get out. My ass is tighter and more fuckable than it has ever been.

I have no desire at all to live into significantly older age. I'm 60 next June, and another 10/15 years after that will be fine by me.

The thing that makes me pause is that it is difficult to predict how becoming HIV will affect you. dementia is an option(it could be anyway, but HIV might speed this up). Also, it is not clear what impact HIV could have on other inherited conditions a person might have that had not started to be active at the time of becoming HIV poz.

I guess that one day I will take the plunge anyway, in a sauna, in a dark room, heading to a sling in a lighted area once mu ass is thoroughly creamed up, and it is clear what I am there for.

You seem to be making the best of what has happened to you - pity there is no profile or pics to give a clearer idea of you.

I just up loaded a couple photos of myself so now you can get a gander. The bareback issue is a hard one. And we have not even talked about all the other stuff you can get that in some ways is more horrible than HIV. The new super clap sounds horrendous and siph is a nightmare. Even so I have to say giving in to your inner slut feels soooo good. There is nothing in the world like climbing into a sling and having ten guys take their turn.

Of course its all a gamble and you just might be a winner. I went 13 years fucking every guy in sight and had no trouble. It catches up with you though eventually. Thanks for your comment.

[Guest gothguy999]

I stopped having live human contact sex, even mutual masturbation sex on Sept 1, 1996, so it's about 15 years now. Just stayed with porn before the internet and now with DSL high speed streaming, along with sex toys and sniffing poppers. I'm glad I'm not alone in all this simulated sexual expression. I live in a city with a huge HIV positive population, so finding HIV negative males on the sex circuit getting pretty sparse, the internet has made so many closet case straight identified males the go bisexual or Gay4Pay.

The main reason I am drawn to HIV and AIDS developed males is that the issue is out in the open, at least with me. Serosorting among male aquaitances also helps to deal with the psychological fallout of HIV poz status and health changes on the body. I crave and love bareback hardcore assfuck videos and photos like a crack addiction, and remember my days in the 1980s, rare times where I was fucked condomless in the shithole cunt, creamed and feeling like fertilized vagina of a woman, hot fluid that makes babies.

[Guest good4badnpa]

well, just to add my 2 cents, I'm negative but I've had 3 boyfriends who have been poz and it wasn't a good experience for any of them. Personally, I was never safe until the mid-80's. Before then condoms were something you wore to not get someone pregnant. It was strange having to where a condom. Anyway, I have used them off on on over the years and, like I said, I've had 3 boyfriends who have been poz. The first, and the love of my life, died in 96 very horribly. The next one seemed healthy and rarely took his meds. The last one was exposed in 82, we met in 2001, and he was still doing relatively well in 05 when we broke up. He had to take 8 huge horse pills every morning and night plus quite a few other drugs. He maintained but it wasn't something I would ask for and frequently had reactions from the medication. Sometimes the nausea would be really bad and sometimes he would get disoriented and have to lay down for a few hours. And then there were the trips to the hospital in the ambulance when he had either a bad reaction to the medication or from the virus. We constantly had to rearrange our schedules around his medication and if we ever went anywhere, we had to take an extra bag just for the medications. It's a huge drag and not something someone should want to have to endure. It can be painful and disfiguring. And, some of the medications they use to keep people alive do horrible things to your body.

In my opinion, anyone has the right to do just about anything to themselves and I have no problem with it. I believe that a lot of the 'bug chasers' really don't know what it's really like and there's some idealized notion of what being included in that group really means. They see all these sexy men who are poz and they think there is some sort of secret club or something and that once you're poz, everything is wonderful and you'll never die from AIDS because there are medications. As in most things, the reality is MUCH different than the fantasy of it. Like I said, I don't have a problem with what people want to do to themselves, I just think that someone should live with someone with the virus first and see what it's really like before you jump. If you're informed and you've seen people you love turn into cancerous lumps of pain who cough until they throw up and have uncontrollable diarrhea and a fever of 105 for weeks at a time until they finally cough their last breath and die, then go ahead. It's your choice. But, don't be misled to thing that things will be better for you. It's a bitter pill to swallow then - actually, quite a few of them. Unfortunately, I'm old enough to have seen quite a few of my friends die this way. It's not fun. Know what you're getting into.

[Guest Albertori]

It's a very interesting topic... many guys are discussing about bug chasing in many forums. Some of the stuff I read is ignorant and dictated by a moment of being too horny. Others are more intense and less idiots